Why I am writing about suffering
I started this blog for many reasons. I love good food. I want to feed my family well. I love developing recipes and helping people get food on their table. But the other reason I’ve always been interested in a good diet is because I’ve needed to eat well to survive life. I’ve dealt with Chronic Fatigue and many other troubling, but low grade symptoms for years. Eating a good diet has been crucial to living a well-rounded life.
After stress and mold exposure, my health that had always been a little sensitive, but okay with a good diet, took a deep nose dive. It was a year of pain, frustration, angst and dead ends. It took us a year to get the answer why I was struggling so much. It was Lyme Disease – something I have likely had since I was a child, as that’s when my first symptoms appeared. The things that were lowering my immune system – mold in our house and stress – likely made the long held at bay Lyme Disease flare.
While I have hope for getting better now that we know what to treat, it’s brought a lot of suffering into our lives in many ways – financially, emotionally, and physically. We’ve had to deal with other heartbreak as well in our lives – the loss of our firstborn when she was two months old, a devastating miscarriage, and relational strain during a church community falling apart, to name a few.
As I’ve blogged in the “real food” world, I’ve realized how many people out there are also suffering through many different life circumstances. Suffering doesn’t just happen to those in third world countries. Suffering is all around us. I’ve gotten so many emails from readers sharing their own personal struggles.
With so much of my time spent sick these last 18 months, I’ve spent a good deal reflecting on my faith and what the Bible says to me about suffering. Truths that started being planted when I was a child are still blooming in my heart even while my faith is challenged and stretched, and doubts assail me. Out of that a writing project has emerged. I’m currently writing about how the Book of Job and the hope of Jesus has given me comfort and hope during really dark days. Those who have signed up for my new email list will get updates – slow as they may be – as I continue to work through this very personal, but I feel important, writing project.
If you have the time to drop me a note with any encouragement, thoughts on suffering, or anything else you’d like to share. Please do! I’d love to hear from you. (You can just hit “reply” on the last email you’ve gotten from me).